We arrived back safely from our vacation today. I’ll update the blog with a review of our trip including pictures later. Tonight, my mind is heavy with other thoughts. I was foolish to think that because I was spending the whole day in airports and on airplanes today I could just skip over Mother’s Day with little thought to the sadness that it contains. I actually enjoyed the fact that I got wished Happy Mother’s Day by more people today than I would have were I home. Everyone from the Enterprise employee checking in our rental car, to the flight attendants on the plane gave their best wishes for the day. It was not hard to miss that I am a mother as I was towing along a 4 year old and am very obvioulsy expecting another. I didn’t give much thought to the fact that these people have no idea that I am a mother of three, not just of two. That’s a thought that would have been more in my mind last Mother’s Day. But as I neared home, I started to find sadness in the day. My thoughts were drawn to Emma and my eyes were filled with tears. It didn’t help that I seem to have missed the first bloom on her rose bush this year, and though there are several new buds, I miss the present God gave me last year in her memory on Mother’s Day–a rose ready to be made into a corsage. I know it doesn’t help that I am exhausted from two weeks of vacation (funny how rest and relaxation can still be so wearing), but I feel very sad tonight.
Anyway, I’m sorry for the depressing post. It is just how I feel tonight. Don’t worry, it doesn’t reflect on the trip we just had, which was a lot of fun. This is the first time I’ve taken for tears in awile and so it is not surprising that I need to release them on this day.